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Show Post by Meera merr suppressed by Grenopia. Meera merr 3 years 223 days ago Neyde spears kingdom wrote:Neyde sat sullenly in her room. Another hazy day. The sunlight glared through the unwanted gap in the curtain, brightening up the dust and dryness around her. She hadn't been out in a while, so much to do, so many plans that had just come up to nothing. Now the Autumn was coming, still no transport reservations, still no work with the fairies, the historical book hadn't even been started. It all felt empty. "Is this what you wanted?" a husky voice asked from across the room "Oh piss off you," Neyde sighed, heaving over the bed to get a glass of water. She hadn't been drinking enough that day. "Is this what you wanted?" it repeated itself, sounding as dried out as a dead insect "try try try, always saying you'll do this or do that. and nothing. why? too lazy?" Neyde tried her best to ignore whatever the thing was, waving her arms like a tired butterfly. Tiredly, she sat up on the bed and reached for a packet of crisps. "Its not my fault. I'm not very well at the moment." "But what happened to all those outlets?" the voice seemed to be touching her shoulders now "all those stories you wanted to write, all the changes you wanted to make to help others out. The song contest? all gone down the drain. and for what?" "Maybe i just don't want this anymore..." Neyde sighed suddenly. Her eyes felt heavy. She flopped back onto the bed "all those dreams i had when i was little, maybe its time to just give them up. They always say follow your dreams or whatevs but at the end of the day its all the same sappy bollocks. I can't do it anymore, what's the use?" The thing seemed to smile then "leave" it whispered. "Leave this place, don't tell anyone, don't make a show of it. Just close the door and don't ever look back. No use now." its dry voiced soothed out "its never for ever; you move on, people forget about you. you don't need to keep forcing it. just leave." Neyde sat still for a second, then she smiled and she shook her head. "you're right. things do move on. But not this." She stood up then, not looking strong, not defiant, but calm. "I might not be able to do everything i wanted to do right now, but that doesn't mean I'll never do it right?" The voice drew back, stuttering. "No, i get to talk now" Neyde paced up to her mirror, fitting on her old lipstick. It was dry, she hadn't worn it in a while, but she didn't care, "Its not set in stone, it never is, now if you'd leave me alone now, I'm trying to have a little rest." She expected a response, but none came. Smiling, she headed back to her bed, and this time she made sure the curtains were closed. Closing her eyes, she remembered a story she had made up for her teddy bears as a little girl, but she had never had time to finish it. "Now then..." she whispered softly to herself, as she slowly drifted off into a dream. h Lake perseverance

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Post by Meera merr suppressed by Grenopia.

Neyde spears kingdom wrote:

Neyde sat sullenly in her room. Another hazy day. The sunlight glared through the unwanted gap in the curtain, brightening up the dust and dryness around her. She hadn't been out in a while, so much to do, so many plans that had just come up to nothing. Now the Autumn was coming, still no transport reservations, still no work with the fairies, the historical book hadn't even been started. It all felt empty.

"Is this what you wanted?" a husky voice asked from across the room
"Oh piss off you," Neyde sighed, heaving over the bed to get a glass of water. She hadn't been drinking enough that day.
"Is this what you wanted?" it repeated itself, sounding as dried out as a dead insect "try try try, always saying you'll do this or do that. and nothing. why? too lazy?"
Neyde tried her best to ignore whatever the thing was, waving her arms like a tired butterfly. Tiredly, she sat up on the bed and reached for a packet of crisps.
"Its not my fault. I'm not very well at the moment."
"But what happened to all those outlets?" the voice seemed to be touching her shoulders now "all those stories you wanted to write, all the changes you wanted to make to help others out. The song contest? all gone down the drain. and for what?"
"Maybe i just don't want this anymore..." Neyde sighed suddenly. Her eyes felt heavy.

She flopped back onto the bed "all those dreams i had when i was little, maybe its time to just give them up. They always say follow your dreams or whatevs but at the end of the day its all the same sappy bollocks. I can't do it anymore, what's the use?"
The thing seemed to smile then "leave" it whispered. "Leave this place, don't tell anyone, don't make a show of it. Just close the door and don't ever look back. No use now." its dry voiced soothed out "its never for ever; you move on, people forget about you. you don't need to keep forcing it. just leave."

Neyde sat still for a second, then she smiled and she shook her head. "you're right. things do move on. But not this." She stood up then, not looking strong, not defiant, but calm. "I might not be able to do everything i wanted to do right now, but that doesn't mean I'll never do it right?" The voice drew back, stuttering.
"No, i get to talk now" Neyde paced up to her mirror, fitting on her old lipstick. It was dry, she hadn't worn it in a while, but she didn't care, "Its not set in stone, it never is, now if you'd leave me alone now, I'm trying to have a little rest."
She expected a response, but none came. Smiling, she headed back to her bed, and this time she made sure the curtains were closed. Closing her eyes, she remembered a story she had made up for her teddy bears as a little girl, but she had never had time to finish it.
"Now then..." she whispered softly to herself, as she slowly drifted off into a dream.

Lake perseverance

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